Category: Jobs
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Let’s do some VERY basic math. (Take 2)
March 7, 2023 Scale -3 to +3 JOB No/little JOB People -3 2 $$$ 3 -3 Creativity 2 2 Anxiety -3 -1 Self-worth 2 -3 Good example for kids 2 -2 Executive Functioning -2 1 Physical Stress -1 3 Happiness 2 -2 Special Interest 1 2 I upset other people Chance to be bullied -1…
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Let down by others, or letting others down?
I may not get out of bed today, at least not until the dogs make me. What’s the point? Seriously. My life, in most ways, is pointless. I believe I have proof. Honestly, life itself seems pointless. It always has, in many ways. What are humans supposed to do, conquer the universe? No, wait. It’s…
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It’s time to “take back the narrative” of my life.
I’ve given up too much control of my life to others. Ironically, even when I’ve found myself to be (or told that I am) controlling, I’m aware it’s coming from another, external, location. A person can be a conduit, not the source of something negative (or positive), and I think I’ve been a conduit many…
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Will people pay me to keep away? (Creating my own new world.)
I’ve never wanted to crowdsource, as it feels wrong, for some reason. Well, the reason is, I don’t think what I do is worth anything. For years, I thought it was because of society, but I think it’s more because of my parents, especially my father. Moreover, the younger generations have a different attitude towards…
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My autistic friend doesn’t know I defended him.
It was at least five years ago, probably seven, since everything feels two years off due to the pandemic. I was in the office of where I used to work, and somehow a conversation came up about my autistic friend. Being my friend or not was irrelevant. It was his autism that was under attack,…
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Let’s do some VERY basic math.
Scale -3 to +3 JOB No/little JOB People -3 2 $$$ 3 -2 Creativity -1 2 Anxiety -3 -1 Self-worth 2 -3 Good example for kids 2 -1 Executive Functioning -3 1 Physical Stress -3 3 Happiness -1 -2 Special Interest 1 2 I upset other people -3 1 TOTAL -9 2 It’s not like…
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What I needed was not that complicated.
WHAT I NEEDED at my last job was not that complicated: Some person(s) to help me in certain challenging social situations Everyone else to not get in the way of the person(s) helping me, even when they didn’t understand what was going on. THAT WAS ALL! HOWEVER, The person(s) who really should have been helping…
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Early considerations for the new year. Do I really need therapy, medications, friends, a job, family?
It’s 2023, and I have no clue what I’m doing. I don’t know if that’s good or bad, but it’s especially unsettling for me, my autistic brain not being able to process things very well or quickly. Most people would have moved on by now. It’s not something I can do just reading a positive…
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Do people even care? Autism and Suicide.
For much of my life, I’ve wondered if people cared if I’m alive or would be that upset if I died.
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Here’s how my days often have ended this year.
It’s 4am. My day, in many ways, was not terrible, but I’ve been crying off and on for the past eight hours. Not a lot, but just always at the surface. If I get around to it, I’m going to transcribe a recording I made yesterday of myself talking in the car, on the way…
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Just me rambling, in real time.
Yeah. So, my brain right now. Stayed up too late again. Lots of energy. Feeling good waking up. Wife home today after working in the morning (on Saturday). It’s fine, good, really. Again, lots of energy, brain going well. Well, I’ve yet to take that medicine that slows by brain down some. Helps socially, but…
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