Paranoia can be present in autism, and, if for no other reason, past negative experiences with other humans tend to make one skeptical of what is going on.
In some ways, I think autistics are “walking on eggshells” around everyone else.
When people say you are paranoid, but then you can prove you are right, what does that mean?
Hmm . . .
Last week, I had someone tell me something that was a lie three times in about fifteen minutes. Yes, I know that is a strong way to put it.
She tried to convince me I was delusional. Fortunately, I had proof I was not.
Still, I might be delusional about something else, and that’s why she was lying to me. Do you see how this is a problem?
There are so many layers with people! How do I know which is the true layer, the bottom layer, or just the surface?
I would let this go, but I need to trust people – especially these people. They are what’s left of my small circle, and I’m not paranoid about that reality.
Then again, the entire world seems upside-down now anyway, so I’d be OK if that weren’t actually true.
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