Month: November 2022
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F.F.F.F.
Note: this was going to be a second part to F. F. F., but I need to rethink both posts. I’m also getting some data from autistic Twitter friends to get an overall sense of what people refer to as friendship. Given how my brain is currently, I need to reflect on this some more.…
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I’m way behind on doing nothing. (I hate December.)
I’m way behind on doing nothing. I really need to be doing nothing, but I forget sometimes. It’s like a patient after surgery who feels better and decides to do a bit too much. My brain has limits, and it’s not going to function as well as I want it to. Maybe it never has,…
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”Letting go” may not be a trivial saying after all.
The idea of “letting go” is present in most religions, philosophies, spiritual activities, mental and physical disciplines, and stories from galaxies far, far away. It can be expressed as “dying to self,” “slipping away into water,” “doing not trying,” and many other phrases that can come off to me as somewhat naive and trite in…
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Trying hard NOT to be someone
Am I spending all my time trying not to be someone? Leading autism expert Dr. Tony Atwood has observed that autistic people tend to describe friends by what they don’t do instead of what they do. This, he says, comes from their many negative experiences with people. By the time you get to be middle-aged,…
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My major meltdown was a result of a series of major letdowns.
Before I was an adult, I tended to shut down when I was confused or anxious. The first example I’ve heard about was when my parents brought my sister home from the hospital. I was two. As it was described to me, my brother found a baby interesting and acted “normally.” I was freaked out…
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